At the end of my fast, I was reflecting on a passage by John O’Donohue, where he invites the reader to “Listen to the voices of longing in your soul. Listen to your hungers.”
I wrote this in my sketchbook:
day 2 of vision quest. late afternoon, early evening o’clock. 6 meals missed. this is an interesting time to think of hunger because I am really hungry.
As part of the process to prepare for the vision quest, I went for a walk in Elk Island National Park, Canada’s first wildlife sanctuary, and now home to North America’s largest land mammal – the bison.
They welcomed me to the trail head.
They surrounded me while I paused midday for a snack.
They shared their land with me. And as I followed one of their trails off the official trail, I came upon a green, glass bottle.
These bison are here because of a series of human interventions. Humans created this sanctuary, a sanctuary needed because of human activity. But in the middle of this natural area the bottle was out of place. I know nothing of its story, of how long it has been here, or who left it. The only thing it could tell me was that was made in Canada (this was imprinted on the bottom).
I picked it up, initially because I felt a need to carry out any garbage I found. As I carried it around with all my own questions about the bottle, I wondered what questions the bottle might have for me.
We walked together and we sat together.
And eventually, a couple weeks later and just before leaving for the vision quest, it asked me this:
For what are you a vessel?
On that last night in my tent, hungry, the beginnings of an “answer” came.
Today is tuesdayon the Sacred Mountainwhich means I noticewhat I’m really hungry fori have shelteri am warm enoughmy thirst is quenchedmy hunger is for my soul to be seenby mefor my soul to be seenby othersfor my soul to be seenby this placeto see Meto see Othersto see my PlaceI am hungry for Mehere I am.
2 thoughts on “Soul hungers”
I see you…
I see you with joy in my heart for your quest and journey
Thank you, Joan! Seeing and joy are wonderful things 🙂